For the one who I hurt so deeply

Sometimes I asked my self, how wicked I was..........................

Pretending never felt guilty with your sacrafice, when I build my on happiness life above your tremendous heart break.

I did something wrong already, at the moment I let him came inside me. Then, he offer me a love whom I always after, and I have to admit if yours quite different with his. He is the one whom I never demand for, He is the one who I didn't care about what he become or I didn't bother about how long he will love me

And you...........

You the one who I always want to replace my lost brothers place. You know fully well how my heart and my life broken so deep when both of them vanished from my eyes. And that time, nothing left for me but lonelliness and sorrow. The two of my guardian angels were gone.

From those time forward I need to walking through by myself, alone, nobody will support and accompany me like before, till you came............

Then I just keep thinking if you will taking charge  as my brother for me and become my next guardian angel. But as the time passed by, I just relized if you're not the one who I always after, somebody who I can lay my love on him. But I hardly to forced myself to deny that, 

I didn't want to confess if I never love you as a lover, I always trying to certain myself if I love you like a woman loves man, I didn't want to break anything between us, indeed.

So I tried and tried, to love you, to treat you as kind as you always treat me, but no matter how hard I try, I still couldn't find a way to laid my love on you. That's the one and the most thing I regret for.

I'm really sorry for this

And about the treasure whom I given to you and for the everything I have done for you, I never took any remorse, cause you proper to got those. And the only thing whose I can give you. I never meant to hurt you. This situation really I never expected to happen, cause I just sure, whatever goin on me, you're always my future.

But you asked me to go, you set me free, and told me that I have to go and reach my own

Yeah.........................

May be I am pretty selfish person, but I always hope if you can understand me, yet I couldn't blaming you if you'll quite hate me, though

Once again

I'm really apologises about this. Hope you can find your trully lover, who better and could give you very kind of love and life than ever, someday......................................

PS: I really didn't made any excuses, whatever you're thinking