The difference

I keep thinkin' and talkin' about the same thing lately, it's about a guy, can't say he's pretty good looking, yet charming I think. Is it the same thing? I don't know, and I saw no reason to trouble with it, because for me, all the same!
He isn't as tall as the guys I knew before, with black hair and dark brown eyes, he has sweetie smile and the most important thing is, he has incredible talent whose less people have.
I knew him two years ago with unexpected situation. At that time I feel nothing but amazed!!! And all I had done just appreciated him. Appreciete about his shooting stars career and he is one of my favourite beside_of course_my closest friend, the legend!!!!
Our friendship just begun two month later our introduction, and we need short while for being closely. It's no wonder, because we have plenty of things to share and to talk together. I'm pretty love with racing who he spent along his time and he loves music and movie as much as I do. The only difference between us is, he doesn't really like with reading.
When I got him as my new best friend, I feel as if I grabbed back my lost world and these thing make me happy day after day, before I aware my life had changed. After all, my happiness life become more and more wonderful when I realize, I fell in love with him and so does he. Two human being fell in love and they decide to stick together.
Then, at the moment I threw my self in his complicated world, I just aware if it isn't as looks fine as I, or everybody thought. It full of pressured, demanding, and everything. And for the first time I stay inside for the whole championship rounds, I just wondering my self, how much strenght I have so I stand for so long to accompany him, because obviously, I need to support him as full as I can, I can't fallen when he fall down, and I can't down he he needs me to steady his steeps, especially I'm start from zero level.
This period, may be the hardest year for him, having waiting for already three years for the crown and nothing to be real at the short time. And this isn't only for his very long time expectation about winning but also with uncompetitiveness and overall standing whom worst along his career. I know pretty clearly how difficult his position right now. According to him, to the team, to the factory and to the whole people in this business, because this isn't just sport we have been through, but business, prestige, and of course, pride.
your limit nearly comin', anyway. when they parked another guy on the satellite garage, and we should see his potential next year. And surely he'll got more support from the factory than he should deserve. And you?? Next year will be the biggest gamble on your life and career. Your ability to get your own aim will be the judgement to you, and to everybody around you.
And for the time, you only have a year, nomore. Thereafter, may be you will choose to jump to the other factory cause you don't want to wait more longer and you already lose your faith from your previous factory or the factory will kick you out from your seat cause they believe you will never able to help them to reach their biggest pride who lost since three years ago.
But......................
I don't wanna think about those things, I don't.
I just wanna spend every single time with you, to accompany you, whatever your condition are, no matter what you do or what happen with you. Cause I have no lines with your business, I'm not your boss, I'm not your manager, I'm not your mentor as well, who need to demand you, to press you. I'm standing on your side not for all those stuff, but I'm here for you, for your friend, for your somebody to share.
I just somebody who can loan my shoulders for you, to spread my hands to hug you. To comfort you, to raise my eyes to look at yours. To cross my fingers once for everything you do and somebody to wait you at the finish line, so you can comeback to your real life, to me , to somebody who loves you and always hoping for the best thing for you. I'm here to be the best your motivator and companion not somebody to demand you for.
As long as I could remember, after along two years we know each other, things we were share together only our bitterness, your failure, your injuries, my sadness, my obstacles life and things who has he same.
So!! Why I would like to leave you if you_once again_fail to grab your very pride crown?? And I know you already prepare your self to face the hard and tight next season championship, we were start from the down, so we need to hand in hand in order to climb up our aim, not leaving.
No!!!!!!!!
I would never leaving you, not with such as the silly and nonsense reason at least, and not at this very time. I exactly knew, what kind the way you'll being through when I came to your thresholds month after month ago. Cause somebody who I love is you, the real you, you as your self, none else. And it has no lines with what famous your name are, or in which factory you are in, or how thick your wallet is, or how many credit card you have, I love just the way you are.
Yet I can't pretend If I know you pretty well.
There's wise man said, we can't certain to know 100% about someone, but at least we know what kind the person one is. So do I, I don't know you 100% notwithstanding I know what kind the person you are. You already spent your life in this business, surely you know quite well than I do.But I still have no doubt to stand alongside you.
It's the matter of time to prove, If I never made any deal with anything and anybody When I came to your front door, that's the thing you need to know.
Anyway, everybody has up and down time, and it's looks like you're in right now. But don't forget, you were the most successful teenager in the past, nobody cant deny it, and should prove whit it. May be for the premier crown you need to wait a little bit more, compare with your previous succeeded date.
But, it doesn't mean if you will never have that pride. I'm sure you will,I'm quite certain if someday you can put your name down at the most prestigious trophy. Just don't give up, don't quit to fight and keep your faith and confident in you still. Those all you need.
Yet knowingly your job isn't easy, when you need to build up your machinery in order to keep yourself staying up with the front runners guys. That's definitely not such an easy thing cause you need to work with plenty of people put all their faith and biggest hope on to your shoulders.
Therefore, sometimes I feel that condition isn't fair to you, when you already gave all your effort, but still there are people still underestimates and did't believe if you have strength to fight back. Above all you always unlucky, you often crashed down, got fatally injuries so you had no properly preparation to face the championship.
Why??????? We don't know, those are your obstacles, so when you can pass through and get rid of it, you will more and more mature than you are right now.
That's all, a bit difference reflection side of our glamour life and surely nobody ever imagine or thought about it.