2009 World Champion

9 times since he been on the world championship is really the amazing result. He'll be the one of best rider in the world..................

Sepang Podium

Here they are, Valentino,Casey,Dani

The difference

I keep thinkin' and talkin' about the same thing lately, it's about a guy, can't say he's pretty good looking, yet charming I think. Is it the same thing? I don't know, and I saw no reason to trouble with it, because for me, all the same!
He isn't as tall as the guys I knew before, with black hair and dark brown eyes, he has sweetie smile and the most important thing is, he has incredible talent whose less people have.
I knew him two years ago with unexpected situation. At that time I feel nothing but amazed!!! And all I had done just appreciated him. Appreciete about his shooting stars career and he is one of my favourite beside_of course_my closest friend, the legend!!!!
Our friendship just begun two month later our introduction, and we need short while for being closely. It's no wonder, because we have plenty of things to share and to talk together. I'm pretty love with racing who he spent along his time and he loves music and movie as much as I do. The only difference between us is, he doesn't really like with reading.
When I got him as my new best friend, I feel as if I grabbed back my lost world and these thing make me happy day after day, before I aware my life had changed. After all, my happiness life become more and more wonderful when I realize, I fell in love with him and so does he. Two human being fell in love and they decide to stick together.
Then, at the moment I threw my self in his complicated world, I just aware if it isn't as looks fine as I, or everybody thought. It full of pressured, demanding, and everything. And for the first time I stay inside for the whole championship rounds, I just wondering my self, how much strenght I have so I stand for so long to accompany him, because obviously, I need to support him as full as I can, I can't fallen when he fall down, and I can't down he he needs me to steady his steeps, especially I'm start from zero level.
This period, may be the hardest year for him, having waiting for already three years for the crown and nothing to be real at the short time. And this isn't only for his very long time expectation about winning but also with uncompetitiveness and overall standing whom worst along his career. I know pretty clearly how difficult his position right now. According to him, to the team, to the factory and to the whole people in this business, because this isn't just sport we have been through, but business, prestige, and of course, pride.
your limit nearly comin', anyway. when they parked another guy on the satellite garage, and we should see his potential next year. And surely he'll got more support from the factory than he should deserve. And you?? Next year will be the biggest gamble on your life and career. Your ability to get your own aim will be the judgement to you, and to everybody around you.
And for the time, you only have a year, nomore. Thereafter, may be you will choose to jump to the other factory cause you don't want to wait more longer and you already lose your faith from your previous factory or the factory will kick you out from your seat cause they believe you will never able to help them to reach their biggest pride who lost since three years ago.
But......................
I don't wanna think about those things, I don't.
I just wanna spend every single time with you, to accompany you, whatever your condition are, no matter what you do or what happen with you. Cause I have no lines with your business, I'm not your boss, I'm not your manager, I'm not your mentor as well, who need to demand you, to press you. I'm standing on your side not for all those stuff, but I'm here for you, for your friend, for your somebody to share.
I just somebody who can loan my shoulders for you, to spread my hands to hug you. To comfort you, to raise my eyes to look at yours. To cross my fingers once for everything you do and somebody to wait you at the finish line, so you can comeback to your real life, to me , to somebody who loves you and always hoping for the best thing for you. I'm here to be the best your motivator and companion not somebody to demand you for.
As long as I could remember, after along two years we know each other, things we were share together only our bitterness, your failure, your injuries, my sadness, my obstacles life and things who has he same.
So!! Why I would like to leave you if you_once again_fail to grab your very pride crown?? And I know you already prepare your self to face the hard and tight next season championship, we were start from the down, so we need to hand in hand in order to climb up our aim, not leaving.
No!!!!!!!!
I would never leaving you, not with such as the silly and nonsense reason at least, and not at this very time. I exactly knew, what kind the way you'll being through when I came to your thresholds month after month ago. Cause somebody who I love is you, the real you, you as your self, none else. And it has no lines with what famous your name are, or in which factory you are in, or how thick your wallet is, or how many credit card you have, I love just the way you are.
Yet I can't pretend If I know you pretty well.
There's wise man said, we can't certain to know 100% about someone, but at least we know what kind the person one is. So do I, I don't know you 100% notwithstanding I know what kind the person you are. You already spent your life in this business, surely you know quite well than I do.But I still have no doubt to stand alongside you.
It's the matter of time to prove, If I never made any deal with anything and anybody When I came to your front door, that's the thing you need to know.
Anyway, everybody has up and down time, and it's looks like you're in right now. But don't forget, you were the most successful teenager in the past, nobody cant deny it, and should prove whit it. May be for the premier crown you need to wait a little bit more, compare with your previous succeeded date.
But, it doesn't mean if you will never have that pride. I'm sure you will,I'm quite certain if someday you can put your name down at the most prestigious trophy. Just don't give up, don't quit to fight and keep your faith and confident in you still. Those all you need.
Yet knowingly your job isn't easy, when you need to build up your machinery in order to keep yourself staying up with the front runners guys. That's definitely not such an easy thing cause you need to work with plenty of people put all their faith and biggest hope on to your shoulders.
Therefore, sometimes I feel that condition isn't fair to you, when you already gave all your effort, but still there are people still underestimates and did't believe if you have strength to fight back. Above all you always unlucky, you often crashed down, got fatally injuries so you had no properly preparation to face the championship.
Why??????? We don't know, those are your obstacles, so when you can pass through and get rid of it, you will more and more mature than you are right now.
That's all, a bit difference reflection side of our glamour life and surely nobody ever imagine or thought about it.

For the one who I hurt so deeply

Sometimes I asked my self, how wicked I was..........................

Pretending never felt guilty with your sacrafice, when I build my on happiness life above your tremendous heart break.

I did something wrong already, at the moment I let him came inside me. Then, he offer me a love whom I always after, and I have to admit if yours quite different with his. He is the one whom I never demand for, He is the one who I didn't care about what he become or I didn't bother about how long he will love me

And you...........

You the one who I always want to replace my lost brothers place. You know fully well how my heart and my life broken so deep when both of them vanished from my eyes. And that time, nothing left for me but lonelliness and sorrow. The two of my guardian angels were gone.

From those time forward I need to walking through by myself, alone, nobody will support and accompany me like before, till you came............

Then I just keep thinking if you will taking charge  as my brother for me and become my next guardian angel. But as the time passed by, I just relized if you're not the one who I always after, somebody who I can lay my love on him. But I hardly to forced myself to deny that, 

I didn't want to confess if I never love you as a lover, I always trying to certain myself if I love you like a woman loves man, I didn't want to break anything between us, indeed.

So I tried and tried, to love you, to treat you as kind as you always treat me, but no matter how hard I try, I still couldn't find a way to laid my love on you. That's the one and the most thing I regret for.

I'm really sorry for this

And about the treasure whom I given to you and for the everything I have done for you, I never took any remorse, cause you proper to got those. And the only thing whose I can give you. I never meant to hurt you. This situation really I never expected to happen, cause I just sure, whatever goin on me, you're always my future.

But you asked me to go, you set me free, and told me that I have to go and reach my own

Yeah.........................

May be I am pretty selfish person, but I always hope if you can understand me, yet I couldn't blaming you if you'll quite hate me, though

Once again

I'm really apologises about this. Hope you can find your trully lover, who better and could give you very kind of love and life than ever, someday......................................

PS: I really didn't made any excuses, whatever you're thinking

The Big Dramas

I'm blank!!!!!!!!!!

I can't believe this could be happen and all of us just open mouthed looked to each other 'dissapointing'. All our hard works didn't paid off with anything, moreover a glory whose all of us were expected so much.

I know that plenty of people put all their big hope on to his shoulders and he himself was really want to repeat his succesfull date before in that same soil. That the only sense of reason why he push himself too much, over to his limit..........................................  

And he did a silly mistake, he slipped and fell--more unlucky when nobody came to help him, and he needs to paid too expensive. But he didn't given up, he battled back to earn some standing, shown his fighting spirit whose I nearly forgot how it was, cause too long already he never acted bravely like that.

He shown his class, He prove if he is still special. He didn't want to make any mistake while he still want to secure his seat, secure  his own pride and above all, he never want to down everybody in his pit box, he never want it, never. Right after they help him to dominated for whole weekend.

He has sort of made up for fought back, and become a man of the track on that date. A bit small comfort for everyone hom he as dissapointed. But what can we do??????????

Nothing, we can't do anything but eccept, he already did his best to recover it. So we just trying to remain, to cooling down, looked the positive side despite our disaster.

Nobody will understand how upset he was, no apologises enough to show his huge remorse

Then.............................................

When he finised all of his bussines and came to see me, he said nothing, just gave me a weak bitter smile. I raised my eyes to look at his sad dark brown eyes. At the moment I had nothing occured in my mind, so I just spread my hands and I hug him........................

I hug him, trying to comfort and put a lot of unsaid things in to. That is the only I  can do for him,

All Iwant are,,,,,,,,

He knows if I'll alays there for him. If I never demand him for anything. If I'll always on his side whatever his condition. Hardly to find a way to cheer him, to decrese a bit his disappointment.

It were big drama we had been through, and unfortunatly we were part of it, I really looking forward for the next round to trying  to make it up before the things goes even far away from our hands.............................................

 

JEALOUS

I didn't deliberatly to saw that photo whose headline for his old news. I really didn't mean, cause I just want to read. But who is expect if I saw he and old girlfriend's instead???

Then

At the same day, when I helped him to packed his stuff who will moved from his parents home to his own, he let me open and see his old photos albums. What photos I've seen?????? So many about them!!! From they were kid till the latest photo's even after they broke their relationship about two years ago
Not enough, at the following day, we met acidentally with her and ended up with introuced  ourself to each other.
What the hell situation is it?!?!?!

Yet, more we talked more I feel if I like her, I grant that...

Not because she gave me a credit about everything I have done for him, my travelling I made to accompanied him or something else, but I think she is much more mature than her real age.

She keep saying, that the most of her happiness are, when she knew his life is fine, when she saw his smile and when she knew he could take whatever his wish, even though she didn't taking part of it.

It isn't such an easy to leave the one whom we really love running after their own dreams and we just had chance to love without touch them. Then see they laughing happily with another person.

I keep wondering, about how hard they made this decision. When they still love to each other but the condition is imposible for them to keep together. And after all those unexpected situation, I can't get rid those pictures, everything whom she and I've been talked.

Blimey, those were just old pictures and everybody had their own past, I told my self, but that could not help me at all. Then I was realized...................

I'M JEALOUS..............

Jealous with her kidness, her courage to leave him, yet she love, really love him much, her unconditional attachment to him, and perhaps she is the bravest girl I ever knew.

On the other hand, my curiosity about all his past despite his job as rider always high, so.... I keep searching on the network web even though knowingly it would be annoyed me. And the fact, that he still keep a bit affection for her, or can say they still loove to each other really scared me, I didn't have any courage to think about that

This is the most funny thing about me........................................