Poor Me??

I simply can't think about my own stuff,
Am I too demand to others?
Am I too selfish?
Am I too much?
Sometimes I feel what poor of my self, having no friend to share or to help me to solve my problem, but sometimes I feel that, it was no matter for me, because even if I share with my friend, they can't give me a favour, no judgement but at least I know their capabilities.
This time I just hope that somebody come to rescue me from this mess, no Friend alredy can help me, can take me out from here.
Or I have to wait with no limit so I can stand in to my own stage?
I don't want to wait any longer, but what can I do?
I have nothing to deliver me to my own dreams.
I just can dream, I just can hope, no more.......................

My Fear

In the pretty sunny autumn afternoon, finally I can see you reached your biggest aim. Having always shadowed by other aliens, weeks and weeks and months after months but at the end, your shoot performances can be prove to all the people and you can raise your head to anyone who underestimates.
Sure it was one of your wonderful day on this year, this achievement also salvaging you from the worse season since you step in to this way.
Congratulation anyaway..............
Sure you know, if I always, always certain that someday you can deserve everything you should. I never lose my confident in you, whatever goin on in you or wherever you are in. Because for me all the same, you're my champion, best from the best. All you need is time to prove, and that weekend is of your time.
My eyes just swam with tears when you finish this year with very incredible achievement, and what happy I'm, to see you very pleased with your self.
But then, when I see you cheering and laughing so happily with him as if he is never be your rival along last 3 years. My fear suddenly appeared. I'm straight away remember what he said just day before. How could I imagine about what will goin on in next year?
What if my fear become real?
What if he has another time when you come to his side?
Can you both keep your 9 years already friendship save, still?
This rivalry is pretty hard thing for me to face on. Betwen my dearly lover, and two of my best friends, three persons keep their battle on track and they want to be the one who will be the best and I don't know how thing will goin for years. With me just can stay hiding inside, because no more place for me to stay out without split into three to cheering them. Just try to keep this rivalry, love and friendship on peace all time. Am I too selfish??????????